Happy new month everyone! The year keeps getting better and today, we have quite an emotional, very honest and beautiful write up by Ashaolu Emmanuel. He’s also @tobiisrogue on twitter. We hope this short write up touches you. Please share,comment and enjoy!
Way Back
It’s just one of those days where you realize how much you need God. It is said that God puts us in situations to draw us close to Him, to make us realize how helpless we are without Him; how dependent we should be on Him. I say this submissively, I have been living without God, it was great at some point because everything played out well, but then it didn’t. Still, I tried to figure out how to solve my situation. Let me blow your mind, no matter how much of a genius you are, this intellect and astuteness come from a source. He is the source. Whether you agree or not, He is.
It is a murky day, the gloom the skies emanate is nothing compared to that of my eyes. It dawned on me that I needed help.
Even as I am presently, I haven’t fully submitted to his will, I haven’t handed over everything to Him, I still try to take control of situations. I am manipulative and stubborn and full of pride. But this traits seem to be fading away lately.
I met this vivacious woman on the bus, in her forties at least, and she told me stories of “way back”. How life was and the life she lived when she was young, I couldn’t help but think about how far she had come, and how far I have ahead, to make things right and meet a good life in the future. This thought made me disconcerted for a moment, I can’t do this on my own, I need a source. Him. But then I looked back to how far I’ve come, it’s been all Him, OG from day one. I couldn’t help but be smitten by His love. I am imperfect to a significant measure but I really want Him to smile at me from His throne; the temptation is there, and I hope I emerge a victor. I realize I have to be better, a better man for me, for my loved ones, my future wife, but most especially for Him. For God.
10 years from now, I hope I have a well grounded relationship with Him, a happy home and a life where I am significant to the society and the most amazing people around me.
I hope for halcyon days.
