Internship, struggles and lessons

Internship, struggles and lessons

More than a friend

I had writers block for a while. I tried to write something even if it was just one sentence but I couldn’t so I let it be.
Luckily, some days ago I was inspired by my present situation. I started my internship months ago and I’m currently in ob/gyn posting so I’ve been seeing lots of pregnant mothers.

On a particular day, we were having rounds and I saw this woman I attended to the night before, she came in pregnant but she had delivered by that time. She was so relaxed and she seemed to be at peace dressing up for her baby. It reminded me of how she came in pains, worried, anxious,literally at the doctor’s mercy to help her and get the baby out. Once the baby is out, there’s this joy on their faces that you cannot explain. It happens to a lot of pregnant women. Most of them even forget you and all drama that ensued while they were in labour.

The attention shifts from you and even from themselves they become concerned about the baby.

I likened the situation to something that happens to most of us.
When we come to God with a lot of  requests, worries, anxiety etc. We want God to answer immediately and when God finally answers, there’s this peace and joy that is unexplainable.
Most times after thanking God, that’s where it ends.
We become so engrossed with the answered prayers and our attention reduces, it shifts and we start praying less. Until something comes up again and we want God to answer again, we come back with all that attention and the cycle repeats itself.

I’m guilty of this, almost all of us are. We tend to relax because we’ve gotten what we wanted, it’s human nature sadly but that’s not what God wants. Let’s always remember to thank God, keep the fire burning and not only pray to him when we need something. He’s not your bank. He actually craves and enjoys all round communication with us. You don’t only talk to your friend when you need something so why do that to God who is so much more.

Be thankful and grateful always. 🙏🏽

Struggles
My spiritual life and this internship is something I need to ask help from God for.  I have to choose between sleep and actually having my personal time with God. I was thinking of how to find a balance one morning while doing wardrounds when I noticed a colleague of mine was down and after talking it out it was the same thing he was facing. It was good to know that I wasn’t alone. We talked about it and we both felt better.
The solution I found is to keep on trying, keep the plug in and talk to God even if it’s for a second before I doze off.
Some days are perfect and some days are not but I’m getting better. I still read my devotional but my bible study isn’t as I want it yet and my devotional journal hasn’t been put to use in a while. Well we go little by little. Poco a poco.

Food/Rest
For someone like me who isn’t a foodie, it’s been tough and exhausting. I’m actually very hungry now but it’s a matter of if I don’t cook, I won’t eat and I’m too tired to cook. Please send me food if you love me 😭.
Another thing is Sleep… It’s gold and whenever I get the opportunity to sleep I do not take it for granted 😂. I’ve learnt to unwind every tiny opportunity I get to avoid being burnt out so my heartfelt advice to you all today is to learn how to unwind. Please.

It was a pleasure working with Wesley mothers, it’s time to mend bones 😉.

I think I’m back this time. Welcome me 😁

Estée ✨ 💜

How my surgery posting went.