One of the things I can’t deal with is not getting closure. Well, to people who don’t really know the meaning. Closure is getting the resolution and the settlement on a situation. I know most of have experienced it. It could be a friend that suddenly stopped talking to us or someone we love that just decided to break up and we just don’t know why. Not getting closure just leaves us hanging on a thread but I think it’s just better to give someone closure and to get closure too. Please wait for the note at the end of the story. There is an IMPORTANT note at the end. Enjoy!
Sometimes we need more than love to sort out our pain. We need more than friends to be able to function well in life. We need more than trust before we can move on. We need closure. I needed closure.
My life has been one hell of a roller-coaster since I left “that” house. You might be already be wondering what I am talking about with the closure and the roller-coaster and “that” house. So I am going to tell you a story, not just any story: my story.
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I was married to one of the richest men in New York; James Callaway. His family was the owner of the leading electronics and Gadget Company in the United States and honestly when I met James, I was too overwhelmed. You can guess that I wasn’t as rich as James but I was comfortable. My parents were normal people in the society. My Dad was a lawyer and my mum was a librarian. We were happy so when James came into the picture, my parents were overjoyed because he made me happier. He was different from what the news portrayed him as this cold, stubborn and disciplined man. James was playful and fun to be with. He could be silly at times but he was the most playful persons I had ever met.
When James proposed, I was a bit hesitant. Not because I didn’t love him but his parents didn’t really like me. His sister adored me but his mother was a huge obstacle. She felt I only loved James for his money and I wasn’t up to his level. I finally said yes to James and we got married. The press called me all sort of names but I was determined to be happy. A year after our marriage, James said he wanted to run for governor. I was a little scared but I could see that it was what James wanted so I gave him my support. We pushed back having kids so he could concentrate on his campaign.
I stopped working too so I could focus on James’ campaign and thank the Lord that James won. That was when things started going wrong. I got pregnant and trust me when I tell you I had mixed feelings. I didn’t know if James wanted the child or not but I still told him either way. And he flipped. He said I knew we weren’t ready yet. James changed and throughout the course of my pregnancy, he rarely stayed home. I gave birth to our son, Louis through caesarian section because I was too weak for a natural birth. James came afterwards and it was like the sight of our son melted him. He apologized for not being there and how he wants me to forgive him. I loved this man so why wouldn’t I forgive him.
We moved on and raised our son happily then when Louis turned two, I got pregnant again. I was scared for my health because I almost lost my life the last time. But I still decided to have the baby or babies. Before I could tell James, he told me he was running for presidency. I was shocked because he didn’t consult me first. I got angry and told him I was pregnant. This time, he didn’t talk to me till I delivered again through caesarian section. I gave birth to our twin girls: Lana and Louisa. James didn’t come this time, only my parents and his sister. By this time, his mother was warming up to me because of her grandchildren. After I recovered, I went back to work and James focused on his campaign. The tension in the house was too much and I honestly thought of moving out to my own apartment. But the kids needed their father.
The press got wind of our marriage problems and James started losing points. I still loved this man and I wanted to settle this. So I suggested couples therapy. But James wouldn’t talk to me. I still didn’t give up so I stopped working again so I could follow James around for his campaign.
We rehearsed speeches and pretended to the world that we were happily in love. James won again.
He was now the president of the United States. I was so happy for him. But I didn’t know what was coming for me.
A year after we moved into the white house, James would only talk to me when it was necessary. We didn’t even sleep together again. I tried more than once to talk to him to put the kids into consideration and just tell me what I did so badly. More than once, James raped me because I didn’t want to have sex with someone who wasn’t talking to me.
He became a stranger day by day. Not even the white house could make him better.
One night, after a charity event I came home and discovered James was home. I went to check the kids and they were asleep so I saw the light of our room on. I walked to the room to switch it off since no one was sleeping there anymore. The door was a bit open so I just pushed it gently and I saw what I wish I never saw. James was on the bed naked with his Assistant. I couldn’t move. I just stayed on the spot until my legs gave way and I fainted.
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I never went back to the white house. I filed for divorce and told America the truth about our marriage. The shame was too much for James and he was forced to resign. I fought for custody for our children and I won. The kids see him every weekend but I never see him. He sends the driver to get them. We never spoke and we haven’t still spoken.
It has been almost 10 years and I am still puzzled. How did things go so wrong? I just want closure. I can’t even date any other man. I just want to know what happened.
So I’m standing in front of him right now and for the first time in years, we are speaking to each other. He is ready to tell me what actually happened.
NOTE: well, it seems James is ready to tell Aliyah what happened. What do you think happened to James? I have my own answers but I want to know what you guys think. Please drop your comments and if you want to read more, kindly subscribe!
