Peace.

This will be the third or fourth time I will be staring at my laptop for the past 6 months trying to figure out how to write what I’m feeling and I’m finally going to write something in the easiest way I possibly can.

First of all, I have been stretched this year. I never knew I was this elastic 😂. Figuratively speaking, There was a lot of fog everywhere that I knew would only clear on its own accord.
You know that period that your emotions keep going up and down and for a moment you trust God, Nothing can shake you and suddenly again you become overwhelmed, tired, frustrated etc That is what I mean by up and down.

I won’t say I was worried or anxious. I was just tired, very tired. Of course this period made me closer to God which is something I’ve longed for. I would sometimes tell my friends that I just wanted to go to one mountain just me and God 😂. I know it sounds funny but God heard. The mountain was my room and it was for months. I had enough time to fellowship with Him and I studied the spiritual books I didn’t have time for before.
I also had time to rest. I started my hair tips page but in the midst of all these I still had some things at the back of my mind. So many uncertainties still dwelling in my mind even though I saw all these change of plans as God rearranging everything perfectly for me.
During my high and low days, prayer was the only thing that I knew strengthened me, I would tell God how exactly I felt and sometimes just tears was enough. There was no filter of any kind.
As Charles Spurgeon said “Prayer is the slender nerve that moves the muscle of omnipotence”. I found peace I can’t even begin to explain. Peace that is not just the absence of certain circumstances but the presence of God. I felt whole with God and away from the noise of this world. Everyone can testify there was a lot of noise these past 6 months.
Generally speaking, God shows himself to me in different dimensions which still awes me up till now. Last year I learnt to trust him and in the last 2 months I went to that bank of trust and God showed up as he always does. An example is that I prayed by faith that I would be able to attend my friend’s wedding before school resumes and he answered it. The wedding was 2 weeks before our resumption.

Conclusively, In this period, God has been my peace( Jehovah Shalom).

Phil 4:6-7 (TPT)
Don’t be pulled in different directions or worried about a thing. Be saturated in prayer throughout each day, offering your faith-filled requests before God with overflowing gratitude. Tell him every detail of your life, Then God’s wonderful peace that transcends human understanding, will make the answers known to you through Jesus Christ.

Estée ✨