Breathe

“And I know
Though the winter is long even richer
The harvest it brings
Though my waiting prolongs even greater
Your promise for me like a seed
I believe that my season will come”
                        — Hillsong Worship(Seasons)

Breathe.

Be patient with your journey.That’s where I’m going to start.

Be patient with where you are going or where you are now.

The journey entails alot. There is anger, pain, disappointment, surprises, betrayals, love, peace, loneliness, success, solitude, progression and stagnancy. That’s a whole lot.

As I write to you, I want you to also know I don’t have it all together. I am also learning like you. I’m also reading posts like this to encourage me.
And for me, I don’t have the luxury of having to tell so many people what goes on in my head all the time mostly because it’s difficult to express myself by speaking to people. So I write the entire journey of what goes on in my head.
I get tired too, I want to give up. I want to progress. I want to stop trying. I want to move on. I want to explore. I want to be hidden. I don’t feel like socializing. I want to meet new people.
Just a lot of different feelings popping in your head like popcorns in the microwave.
You see your friends moving forward and achieving a lot and you’re happy for them(genuinely) then in the little corner of your mind, you’re reminded of your own lack of achievements. You’re reminded that you haven’t accomplished anything in the last 2 to 4 years and even when people tell you “As far as you’re alive, it’s an accomplishment”, it still doesn’t uplift your spirit.
You want to graduate, you want to get a career changing job, you want to get married, you want to have kids, you want to start that business and you want your whole world to see that you aren’t a failure after all.
I don’t know how to make you understand it but listen to me, take it easy on yourself. You’re just going to burn out if you continue to weigh yourself down.

Dont forget to breathe”
                             — Easyy

Do you celebrate your little wins or all you remember are the times people called you names? Do you count your little wins or all you remember are the people who left you behind. I don’t blame you because I don’t blame myself either. It’s human nature to remember mostly the negatives.
I’m learning to celebrate my wins no matter how funny they sound or how tiny they look. Even if it’s being able to complete 30 days of a fitness challenge or being able to pass a level in candy crush. Those “tiny” wins I celebrate with myself have been giving me more happiness than ever.
     Why do I need to compare my journey with another? We have different destinations though or you don’t believe it. Ask someone close to you that you think is achieving much more than you and you’ll be surprised with the answer.
Although, social media doesn’t help so much. It has made a lot of people to think everyone is living a picture perfect life and that’s why your heart breaks when you hear a certain celebrity committed suicide or is getting a divorce.
  Everyone is going through their own process, remember that. I want you today to try to engage in mindful living. Be aware of your surroundings, your nature. Every single detail. The birds that come to your yard to eat leftovers every 6pm or the ones that come at 7am to sing by your window. Just sit and observe. Look and feel. Take that time off social media, Inhale that fresh air and it will give you joy.
Don’t dampen your mood by remembering the mistakes you made in the past. Noone is above mistakes.Enjoy the goodness of this earth my friend and be patient with yourself and your journey. You’ll get there no matter what those voices say, no matter how long it takes, you will get there. Take it from me and like the Good book(my best book) says:
  “So my counsel is: Don’t worry about things—food, drink, and clothes. For you already have life and a body—and they are far more important than what to eat and wear.
  Look at the birds! They don’t worry about what to eat—they don’t need to sow or reap or store up food—for your heavenly Father feeds them. And you are far more valuable to him than they are. Will all your worries add a single moment to your life? “And why worry about your clothes? Look at the field lilies! They don’t worry about theirs. 
  Yet King Solomon in all his glory was not clothed as beautifully as they. And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and gone tomorrow, won’t he more surely care for you, O men of little faith? “So don’t worry at all about having enough food and clothing. Why be like the heathen? For they take pride in all these things and are deeply concerned about them. But your heavenly Father already knows perfectly well that you need them, and he will give them to you if you give him first place in your life and live as he wants you to.
  “So don’t be anxious about tomorrow. God will take care of your tomorrow too. Live one day at a time.
          (Matthew 6:25–34)- The living Bible translation.